I've been working with my doctor to find a medication that will allow me to sleep at night without giving me narcolepsy the next day. So far, no luck.
The last drug I took had the opposite effect. Instead of lulling me into a gentle sleep it gave me uncontrollable jitters. I woke myself up from a nap kicking one leg, while the other leg shook like a meth addict desperate for a fix. It was all kinds of weird, like an insect you squish but it keeps twitching for another minute.
Restful, that is not.
Over the past years I've fallen into a really bad pattern of getting up at 6:30 (ish), to work by 9:00, home to nap from 4:00 – 6:00, then bed at around midnight. Of course I'm not tired at midnight, either, thanks to that hefty two-hour nap. But without it I'm completely miserable, trashed for the entire evening.
I know if I'd just endure one sleepy evening I could re-set my internal sleep clock, but everyone else in the house keeps late hours, too. How could I sleep when everyone else is awake?
I know, I know, I should put my foot down and make the rest of the house get to bed earlier. In theory, sure. In practice? Not so much.
Going without sleep takes a terrible toll. Not just on overall health, but appearance, as well. This was me this morning, on first looking in the mirror:
A little tired, a little ragged around the edges. And, to top it off, Mt. Zitmore erupting on my jaw.
I'm thinking, "It's bad, but we can work with this."
Then, some coffee!
Only 12 cups!
I drove to work, feeling re-charged. I was a NEW WOMAN! Who needs sleep? It's so overrated!
I MAY NEVER SLEEP AGAIN!!
THIS IS CRAZY-INSANE! I'VE NEVER BEEN MORE PRODUCTIVE!
please shut up and go away……